I release the call
Nostrils flare as I reflect
That went about as well as it could have gone
Considering they always end the same way
Must it be so? I cannot muster the strength
To see a different path
At least I've rounded the switchback
Again
At least it's over
Again
At least I learned a lot or I learned a little
Or I am no longer sick
And I do not believe that I ended up dying
Not this time
And am I lying to myself when I say next time
Next time will be different
It's hard to make ten years of mistakes
But clearly, I reflect
Not that hard